MARCUS MÜTZELL

TODAY: STHLM. Stadsbiblioteket. Dramatiska institutet. Gå med mor på stan. Äta lunch. Träffa mina små PROJEKT SKÖNHET-babes och jobba vidare med det. Äta dillchips. Vara snygg. Dricka kaffe.

Mitt liv var perfekt tills alldeles nyss.
Pappa har köpt rotmos.

Helgen var helt jävla asgrym. Here comes le recap:

LÖRDAG: Slappa hemma för att sen åka och fika med farmor. Planterade om tre blommor vilket var sådär väldigt duktigt av mig. Kvällen spenderades först med att undvika uteliggare vid Rådmansgatan för att sedan umgås med käraste PÄ, det var helt jävla galet cp-kul. Jag säger bara spaghettistubbe och thomas-sabo-tårta. Vi som skulle sova i tid inför modevisningen, va bra det gick. Men jävlar va roligt det var. Helt sjukt.

SÖNDAG: Gå upp klockan 04:00 och ta oss till salongen, bli stylade och sminkade för att sen hoppa på bussen till Skövde. Väl i Skövde var det modevisning, som var så himla roligt. Adrenalin säger jag bara. Efter vad jag tror var ungefär två timmar i Skövde åkte vi tillbaka till Stockholm igen, men jävlar va värt det var. Skulle verkligen inte banga på att modella igen, det är något som är säkert. Grymma människor, grym visning. WAA. När jag kom hem åt jag chips.

Om vi nu släpper helgen och går vidare till dagens händelser säger jag bara: HAIRSPRAY! Jag blir så jävla taggad av låten You Can't Stop The Beat att det är galet. Idag dansade vi till den, och jag ville hoppa runt och bara vara crazy för att det var så roligt. Sagt och gjort. Hoppas verkligen på att vi gör klart hela den koreografin, även fast det kanske inte var det som är den egentliga tanken. Någon gång i mitt liv ska jag vara med i Broadway's Hairspray. I'm just sayin'. Just nu är jag bara jätteglad, och dagens middag blir kycklingpasta, en av mina favoriter. Kvällen bjuder på IDOL, lite manusanalys och chips. Känns awesome.

Jag har hittat två stycken ringar från ASOS.com som är fett grymma. Jag pallar typ inte för att de är så grymma. Funderar på att faktiskt beställa de rackarna. Såna där ringar som går över flera fingrar tycker jag ju väldigt mycket om. Ringar över huvud taget faktiskt, men särskilt såna ringar. Och solglasögon.

Imorgon är det genrep för modellgrejen i Stockholm. På söndag åker vi till Skövde och rockar som få med våra snygga hår. Ska bli så jävla awesome! Jag är galet taggad.

Nu ska jag väl leka runt på internet en stund som kommer bli lite för länge och sen försöka analysera klart den där engelskan en gång för alla. Det är ju trots allt imorgon det ska vara färdigt. Funderar på att käka lite hårt bröd till. Hårt bröd är så jävla underskattat, jag säger då det.

Engelskaläxan är det enda som väntar på mig nu, och jag bävar för att ta tag i det. Här har man gått och intalat sig själv att det är typ 12 sidor. Hej 20 sidor. Jag ska tydligen läsa igenom och sen analysera texten och sånt där smart man gör. Ikväll har jag inte tid och imorgon har jag inte tid. På fredag ska det vara klart. Så istället för att sitta här och flebba framför skärmen kanske jag borde gå och göra något vettigt. Jag som just hade gjort massa vettigt med projektet och ska göra ännu mer vettigt med projektet sen. Jag tyckte jag förtjänade en liten paus. Jag har insett att vi har haft för lite att göra i skolan, jag har inte alls kommit in i hela den här pluggrytmen som jag borde. Jag äter mest chips och dricker kaffe. Men det är ju fint på sitt sätt.

Today I've cleaned my room, looked up some awesome jewelry, coffee, lunch and music. Left of the day is phone, make salad, eat, coffee, TV, STUDY, work with project beauty.
To bad though that I (unintentionally) stayed home today, I actually looked really good running to the bus. A little to late. Cozy day.

På två dagar har jag lyckats spilla kaffe över hela mig. Igår skulle jag till SYO och krashade in i en dörr och koppen flög över hela mig (Det ska läggas till att dörren är till allmän beskådan, och människor kommer mot mig). Som tur är hade jag ganska roligt åt det hela och började asgarva. Läraren jag mötte i dörren (LÄS; Krashade upp dörren mot mig) sa att det var ju tur att jag hade mörka kläder. Ja det var ju tur.

Nyss, bara sådär ändå, fick min arm för sig att jag skulle ha kaffe över hela mig. Vad ska man säga.

I HEART.

Skolan. Kaffe. Dator. Borde. Göra. Mer. Nytta. Så. Jag. Ska. Nog. Gå. Till. Syo. Och. Snacka. Om. NY. Sen. Bearbeta. Mitt. Manus. Och. Så. Hej. Då.

By the way. This is how I look now. My new due so to speak. Let's rock this shit!

P!NK - Love Song

One of the best lovesongs around. Today is the day of voting. So, I'm gonna take myself and the rest of la familia and get it overwith. Yep. Later, I'm gonna meet up with my sister and Erika to do some PROJEKT BEAUTY-work done. Hell yeah.

Goodmorning people. Ten o'clock I'm going to STHLM again to get a new due. I am so looking forward to it. And yesterday was really funny, thank you guys. I didn't have my clogs, but I had awesome friends. That's what makes the party. See you later, aligator.

TONIGHT: Beer somewhere with people I like. Look awesome. Yeah.

TOMORROW: New haircut. Birthdaydinner at Sandras. Look awesome. Yeah.

Hemkommen från RUT.
Köpt dillchips från ICA (de bästa).
Skriva i min projektarbetslogg.
Fixa lite annat projektarbetstjafs.
Äta dillchipsen och kolla på nåt kul.
Sova.

Ja, så ser planen ut, jag måste verklgein börj gå och lägga mig i tid. Jag snoozar i en timme varje morgon. Inte bra. Men samtidigt, vem har tid att sova? Jag är hungrig. Idag fick jag även kommentaren att min ring är ett vapen. Jag fattade inte att det var mig hon pratade med ens. De säljer med andra ord vapen på H&M enligt vissa. Jag pallar inte med ibland alltså.

Helt plötsligt mitt i allt kommer ett inlägg på svenska. Herregud. Just nu sitter jag och lyssnar på resten av låtarna från Yiruma's Piano Collection - First Love. Jag älskar det. Piano och vin på en bar i New York, med såna där runda små bord och lite halvdov belysning med tända ljus. Det vill jag ha nu. Jag antar att jag får nöja mig med mitt rum och kaffe.

Kanske att man själv ska ta och spela lite piano? Spela piano och drömma en stund. Lyssna på piano och drömma en stund. Jag bjuder på en bild också. Ewow.

Listening to River Flows in You. Just the piano. It's from Yirumas album First Love. I have no idea if he's the original, but it's played with so much passion. So beautiful.

Det är sådan musik man önskar var sin egen.

Coffee. Coffee. Coffee. Coffee.

Live it, learn it.

My friend, I love you.

Now I'm home again. Yet another worthless wednesdaymorning. But I went to TC and had french fries and to Carlings so it wasn't a total waste. And Yulia and I actally had quite fun during the lesson, drawing and talking and stuff. So, I cange my mind, it wasn't a worthless morning, it was actually a good morning.

Coffie, I can't even begin to describe the awesomeness. Always gets me in a good mood. And I have noticed that I really need another pair of boots, so I'm gonna give it a look this weekend when I'm in STHLM.

Right this second I'm amazed by life. There's been a butterfly in my ceiling for three weeks, and I was convinced it was dead since there was like, dust on it. But no. Now it's very much alive in my window. And it's so beautiful.

What ever happened to the summer? I don't have clothes for rainy days. Bo.
I'm gonna wear sunglasses, as a statement. The summer isn't over.

Anyway, I have now sorted out all schoolpapers for this last year in different folders for different subjects. When I was done I watched IDOL and then I tried to learn a song by John Mayer on guitar but you know what? Right now I really don't have the patient to sit and feel like a loser for several hours just to learn the intro. I am to tired. Instead, I'm gonna watch a movie or some TV, and eat something.

But, I will learn that fucking Mayer-song, I'm telling you. I've been slacking on my guitar far too long.

The song Starstruck by Lady Gaga is getting better and better. I know it's the intro that gets me, but hey. That woman is a genius.

If somebody saw us during our drama-classes, they'd probably think we're mentally... Ill. Well, it's so got damn funny on those classes, but afterwards we're all braindead. I love it.

So, today I've actually done stuff. Yay, go M! Yesterday I freaked out over my messy room and my messy brain, so I panic-cleaned it and planned how I'm gonna plan everything in my head. Today I bought folders that I need and printed out A LOT of papers. I handed in homework and I got my cut-my-hair-awesome-day. It's on saturday. Now my life suddenly feels a bit more on track.

Friday is clubnight. Fuck yeah. Tonight I'm gonna change my sheets, watch IDOL and see Erika to plan for RUT and have tee. And of course listen to music.

And for you who's waiting for love #9. It's coming. Don't worry.

One of the orcids in my room is no longer an orcid. It's more of a dead stick. I don't have time to water my plants, which is awfully mean to them. But I've done some good things today, like working on my project and I got a song from CHESS to sing during this singing-period. I also got awesome feedback from my project-supervisor.

RIGHT NOW: Eat.

LATER: Continue on my studytrack if possible. Coffie. Be creative and make some rings and necklaces. Eat.

LATER: Sleep.

Yesterday I attended a party in clogs. I'm so awesome. If it becomes a trend, everybody should know I started it. Oh yeah. Now I'm gonna eat cheeseballs. I love my life.

The one that got away, E.T, Last friday night.
Just listen.

You know, I've realized this weird thing. A few years ago I bought clothes all the time and I always had money. Now it feels like I never buy anything and never have money. I don't know if there's something wrong with my brain or is it just that my perspective of how much is many that have changed? Well, it feels weird anyway, since I SHOULD have more money. Ye.

Now I'm in my room. I want to party 'til I die. But I wont, I'm gonna take care of Erikas and my little children. No, we're not parents, it's RUT, so it's our theater-children. Ye. It's gonna be awesome, like every thursday. And by the way the RUT camp last weekend was a blast, everybody seemed very pleased with how it turned out. Erika and I ran around like motherfuckers in the woods and cooked and ran and peed and ran. Lord. But it was totally worth it. YE.

Now I'm gonna start pimpin' my vest for real. YEYEYE!

AND I'm a genius. I managed to connect my computer to my sterio, so now I can have party up here everyday baby. Hell yeah. Teenage dream.

Ok, my life is a mess right now. Not in a depressed, bad way but in an actual mess-way. My room looked like a war-zone before I cleaned it a little today and my calendar is well used but I don't look in it. I forget stuff all the time and I'm full of ideas and thoughts. But I'm so got damn happy, and that's what counts right? Music, music music. I'm gonna listen to ROBYN and do something about my homework.

Happy-go-lucky. Let's pimp a vest!

So, good morning you guys. Hope you'll have a nice day. My day (in school) is not really worth the trouble of getting on the bus and get my ass over there cause I only have ONE lesson. And it's not even a funny lesson. And the teacher is weird. But since I'm such a good person I'll go there anyway. But it kinda sucks. Although I might do something funny this afternoon in STOCKHOLM instead. Yay.

And... I'm a model.

Noodles for breakfast is awesome. This week's gonna be full with stuff I have to do and want to do. Unfortunatly more of the have-to-do-stuff. Bo.
This weekemd I've been on RUTcamp and it turned out to be really great. Everybody seemed to appriciate it. Yay. Yesterday I also spended my afternoon with FIKA at Emili's house togheter with some other classmates. Applepie. Yum. It was great.

I've nothing more to say right now then ;

I BOUGHT AN AWESOME RING A FEW DAYS AGO. Yeah. And the model-people will call me today or tomorrow if I'm in. Wish me luck.

TODAY: Wearing my cool glasses. Going to school. RUT and studying.

TOMORROW: Dance. Look awesome. Model-casting.

Today is a day with Swedish, Civics and Religion. I wasn't there the last time so I've probably missed out on a lot. Tonight it's RUT. I like. What I don't like is that a day only have 24 existing hours. I need 48. Everything would be so much easier.

Today my sister's signing her new appartement. I'm so happy for her, it's gonna be awesome! And I'm gonna hand there a lot, hehe. And MAYBE, something smells London this winter. But nothing's settled yet.  I have hope.

"I was fourteen. Highschool. I always took the schoolbus, and I always sat in the back section by a window. Jessie always sat in the front section. But recently I'd noticed that she didn't, she picked the seat infront of me. Next day she sat beside me. We started to study togheter. By study I mean, of course, make out in secrecy. She dumped me after one week of non-stop studying. I was heartbroken. One week later I started studying with Ellie. She was my first real girlfriend and we went out for a year. By then I was fifthteen."

"Love was much easier when I was fifthteen. No complicated real deep hardcore fucking feelings. Just superficial relationships lasting for the moment. But then again, when I was fifthteen I thought it was the end of the world when Ellie broke up with me. Or was it I that broke up with her? Can't really remember. I'm 26 years old. Can't wait to turn 50."

When I just started to feel better my throat comes and fuck it all up. Thank you. I'm just gonna ignore it 'til it goes away. Yep.
Other things happening in my life is that school feels very slackerish, and it's very much going on for the RUT-CAMP this weekend. Hope everything turns out as good as we want it to. Hehe. I have a cough-drop in my mouth AND I'm drinking coffie, with sounds very discusting but actually tastes... Interesting. Today I also made a very good bargain, a pair of awesome sunglasses for nothing more then 40KR! Totally. And especially when I look at the price they really were suppose to have, 650KR. Shit fire I'm good.

Yesterday I was an Avatar. Yes, I was. The worlds almighty something wanted me to have a blue face, so I got it. But seriosly, the glasses I bought today. I'm so pleased and satsified. And today I bought some chains and rings at Panduro. Time to get creative!

Ciao.